[00:00.001]I tried it once before but I didn't get too far[00:06.939]I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart[00:13.802]And all I really wanted was someone to give a little ****[00:20.578]But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up[00:27.703][00:41.424]I tried it once before and I think I might've messed up[00:48.230]I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough[00:55.117]But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die[01:01.942]But nothing very special ever happens in my life[01:06.095][01:08.920]Take the blade away from me[01:11.914]I am a freak, I am afraid that[01:15.543]All the blood escaping me[01:18.857]Won't end the pain, and I'l be haunting[01:22.399]All the lives that cared for me[01:25.648]I died to be the white ghost[01:28.423]Of the man that I was meant to be[01:32.953][01:39.745]I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut[01:46.551]I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough[01:53.375]And I should've told my mother "mom, I love you" like a good son[02:00.168]But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one[02:03.687][02:05.520]Take the blade away from me[02:08.535]I am a freak, I am afraid that[02:12.072]All the blood escaping me[02:15.376]Won't end the pain, and I'l be haunting[02:18.911]All the lives that cared for me[02:22.216]I died to be the white ghost[02:24.936]Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah[02:32.912][03:03.796]I tried it once again and I think I might black out[03:10.654]I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about[03:17.410]My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up[03:24.186]The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so ****ing hard[03:28.763][03:31.067]Take the blade away from me[03:34.418]I am a freak, I am afraid that[03:37.762]All the blood escaping me[03:41.010]Won't end the pain, and I'l be haunting[03:44.562]All the lives that cared for me[03:47.962]I died to be the white ghost[03:50.674]Of the man that I was meant to be[03:55.275]I tried it once again and I think I went too far[03:58.306](The man that I was meant to be)[04:01.803]I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart[04:05.164](The man that I was meant to be)[04:08.674]I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son[04:12.218]This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one[04:16.403]