[00:00.00] 作曲 : Steven D Cooper[00:25.51][00:29.91]For the times that you took care of me when I was sick[00:33.19]For the times that you provided, Lord knows we weren’t rich[00:36.29]For the times I needed money and you helped me out[00:39.27]For the times I was in trouble and you bailed me out[00:42.00]I know that you’re not perfect, I know you’ve tried your best[00:45.14]The reality is that we live in this giant mess[00:48.13]And it’s only getting worse, I’m sure you can tell[00:50.87]But you don’t even realize that you put me through hell[00:54.04]And I don’t know what I’m doing, sometimes I think I’m ruined[00:57.10]And I blame you, and I hate you, but I love you, It’s stupid[01:00.12]Try not to be a victim, but I never had a system[01:03.12]I only had myself for far back as I can vision[01:06.25]I left home at 17, try not to sugar coat it[01:09.14]But I wonder sometimes if my momma even noticed[01:12.01]Did my family even care, were any of you there[01:14.87]When I slept on the floor of that apartment and on the stairs[01:18.11]Was so scared and embarrassed[01:19.74]I knew that it’s apparent[01:21.00]It’s clear I’ve got some issues[01:22.55]And I blame my lack of parents[01:24.02]You swear that it’s all in my head, I guess it’s crazy[01:26.88]To refuse to be just like you, and want more than you gave me[01:29.99]So hate me, call my phone to curse me out[01:32.80]Dig up all my dirt, put it online and search it out[01:35.93]Cut me with a knife, if it helps you sleep at night[01:38.79]But I don’t want to fight, Mom I know it isn’t right[01:41.88][01:42.24]Oh momma, just saying I love ya’[01:47.63]Inside there’s so much pain[01:50.57]Could you make it go away[01:53.67]Oh momma, no one above ya’[01:59.68]Pick me up when I am down[02:02.54]Need you to hear me now[02:05.17]Oh momma[02:06.28][02:06.46]Momma I know you’re hearing this, it’s your oldest son[02:08.47]If only things were different but decisions now are old and done[02:11.34]I try to stay strong but I feel like I’m the only one[02:14.06]Miss my family, brothers, cousins, I’m over run[02:17.47]By the hurt and emotions, every holiday spent alone[02:20.52]It’s atrocious how things unfolded, and now we can’t unfold it[02:23.98]Feel like an orphan in this world, no way to change it[02:26.74]I get hurt and turn away but it’s time to turn back and face it[02:30.13]What happens when I have kids of my own[02:32.27]And they wonder why it’s just mommy and daddy alone[02:35.48]I don’t know how to change it yo’, I guess I only know[02:38.44]That I can’t just walk away or just let it go[02:41.28]And sometimes I get so lonely, And I just want back my family[02:44.60]But damn it, it’s a fantasy, I’m canned in this calamity[02:47.44]I’m stranded and I’m damned to be, the damage of your damage spree[02:50.69]This hand that you have dealt me, isn’t helping, you can’t even see[02:53.55][02:53.84]Momma, just saying I love ya’[02:59.30]Inside there’s so much pain[03:02.19]Could you make it go away[03:05.29]Oh momma, no one above ya’[03:12.12]Pick me up when I am down[03:15.06]Need you to hear me now[03:18.20]Oh momma[03:19.12][03:19.32]Hush little baby, don’t you cry (Momma)[03:21.72]Momma’s gonna sing, a lullaby (Mamma where are you)[03:24.75]Momma’s gonna take, away the pain[03:27.69]Momma’s gonna make, it go away ( I can’t find you)[03:30.58]Hush little baby, don’t you cry (Momma)[03:33.50]Momma’s gonna sing, a lullaby (Momma)[03:36.56]Momma’s gonna take, away the pain[03:39.50]Momma’s gonna make, it go away[03:42.04][03:42.39]I know you had good intentions, this never was planned[03:45.11]But sometimes you have to own the situation at hand[03:48.25]The damage was done, I wish you knew how I feel[03:51.03]And we can’t make it disappear but we can start to rebuild[03:53.94]But you don’t even think that you did anything wrong[03:57.07]You won’t even acknowledge the words to this song[04:00.34]So I stay distant and I stay gone[04:03.25]I wipe my tears, and just move on[04:06.18]Momma